I almost got out of bed last night at 11:30 to post something. I just felt so weird not doing so. I had a strange sense of loss. If I thought for a second that anyone would have actually checked I would have done so. I didn't think there was anyone out there as obsessive as I am. I guess it either runs in the family or rubs off on people. Roo admitted to checking as well. Let's see if anyone checks 2 days in a row?
Anyway what I wanted to tell you about was this very weird dream I had the night before. It was so vivid I still rememher it well almost 2 days later. Here's the gist of it.
I was in some country, at some factory, checking it out as a potential purchase for my employer. For some reason when I was out on the plant floor I was dragging around this little roller suitcase that I regularly travel with. I took it everywhere with me only to realize at the end of the day when I returned to the offices that I had left it behind somewhere. I retraced my steps checking out every possible place I may have forgotten it including the washrooms, but to no avail. I wasn't too worried because I travel light and so it only contained a few shirts, some socks and underwear, and my toiletries....my computer was safely in another bag. Never the less I had developed a liking for the case itself and it was with some regret that I finally acknowledged that it was gone. But wait! I suddenly realized that as soon as I woke up from the dream my case would be back in the closet where it always is when I'm home.
Yes indeed, I actually dreamed that I was just dreaming! Explain that! That's my story and I'm sticking to it. I think I gottta get some different drugs!
And if this post isn't a good enough reason to stop doing this regularly than I don't know what is!! But somehow I feel better now.
Oh and one last thing....one very big thing....tomorrow is Jonathan's one year anniversary of sobriety! I am immensely grateful. If you care to, you can call or text him at 519 591 3038.
"You may say I'm a dreamer,
but I'm not the only one,
I hope someday you will join us,
and the world will live as one."---John Lennon
“Only as high as I reach can I grow,
only as far as I seek can I go,
only as deep as I look can I see,
0nly as much as I dream can I be."---Karen Ravn
love
peter
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I, like everyone one else who reads the blog, am always wondering with anticipation as to what is he going to talk about. I too checked the blog this morning becauce I am addicted to it.
This is a good segue into my son's Jonathan sobriety. I am also grateful, but have come to realize that this is going to be an on-going battle. I have learned that my addiction to hope is stronger than his addiction to dope. My hope is that they will find their way back when they relapse, even if that means for one more day and that is why the memory of working on the roof with my son is so important. If he relapses, I will remember the person he is and not the addict. Congrats Jon. One day at a time.
Love you to the moon and back.
Sidebar--I am fascinated by dreams, let alone 'he dreamt he was dreaming!'
Thanks Pete
Love Old Roo
Well, I guess those of us who are addicts can admit it freely here. I am grateful for yours as it inspires me to be as real and honest as I can. I am grateful to Jon for his perseverance and success, (temporary or not) as it inspires me to never give up hope. I am grateful to Roo for being grateful and sharing herself so honestly. I love you
Well here we are - me checking and you writing - and I have also dreamt that I was dreaming - I just never told anyone because I expected it to be met with the same disdain as the frozen tear story! But I did write about in an English essay for university way back when and I scored a very high mark. Of course they thought it was fiction. Hah! I can't write fiction!
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