"Maybe"

My granddaughters new favorite word. I heard her use it 3 times in a row this morning, every time in response to questions asking if she had interest in certain activities. Where does a little kid learn the "maybe" word. I know exactly where....from me and perhaps a few other adults who I am sure she hears use it regularly, and perhaps even on her. We use it when we're not up to doing something or satisfying some request, and yet we don't want to hurt anothers feelings by outright saying no, and so instead default to the big "maybe" It occurred to me that "maybe" we even use the word on ourselves at times. I know I do. I tell myself "maybe" so that I won't have to face the reality of knowing that I don't have the courage or the strength to do something that I know is probably good for me. And I tell you that it always works. When I say "maybe" to myself inevitably it ends up being "no". And then I can drift along secure in the knowledge that I never broke a commitment to myself....maybe....something to think about.

I had a very good run today. Twenty-five kilometres in just over 2 hours, 20 minutes. Much to my surprise it was more than 5 minute faster than my last long one, also 25k. Must be the crosstraining eh? I am definitely getting stronger. My heart rate was just over 130 for most of the first 2 hours, and up til that point it felt quite effortless. It did start to climb then but I think not drinking enough became a factor at that point, so what else is new.

I went to the pool tonite as well, but my shoulders were quite sore from the post hole stuff and so I just messed around a bit. Tomorrow, bike riding I hope depending on the weather....they are warning of rain however so I'll have to wait and see.

I wish to dedicate day 56 to my nephew Tim who makes me proud to know his mother.

And for no other reason than that he's Teresa's favorite.

"You have brains in your head. You have feet in your shoes. You can steer yourself in any direction you choose.
You're on your own. And you know what you know. You are the guy who'll decide where to go."---Dr Seuss

love
peter