There!.... if that ain't leaving myself open to lots of abuse I don't know what it'll take? I don't care however as I truly believe that one of my strengths is that I take very few things personally. Perhaps I even like abuse as it allows me to laugh at myself and if the abuse is skillfuly done I appreciate it simply for the pleasure of seeing or hearing a witty comment.
But seriously, why am I the stupid one in this family? I can almost bear it (almost) to consider that my older siblings may have more wisdom than me simply due to seniority, but my younger brothers and sister, my wife, and my childern as well? Especially when you consider that I share the same genetic material with most of them?
What prompts this outburst you may ask?
Well, it's the simple fact that of all the advice I got regarding my "purpose" post 2 days ago some of the most pointed, simple and common sense stuff has come from people who parted thier mother's thighs after I did. That doesn't in any way slight the wisdom I regularly get from my beloved older sisters but from them I expect it.
As I search for explanations many possible answers come to me. Maybe it's because I lost some brain cells during that shitty hospital incident? Maybe it's from the drugs? Maybe it's from landing on my head while mountaion biking a few years ago? Or maybe it's because Cory, Mary and Elly, purposely kept me stupid?
No.... more likely it's just because I "am" the stupid one. Born this way. It's funny however that this thought doesn't seem to hurt. Hopefully it's a sign that I have matured because I know that just a few years ago the very consideration of it would have had me running off to the library to learn something. I have always appreciated the idea that a wise man is not one who knows many things, but rather one who knows who to ask. I guess then, that if I ask you guys for advice it would make me a wise man eh? Stupid maybe....but wise!
So in closing and in honour of my younger advisors this will be my priority strategy going forward as relates to purpose. I will continue to ask questions to make other people think, I will try each day to move in the direction of the place I aspire to arrive at, I will spend a little less time thinking about me, and more about others, and finally I will try to be flexible in my purpose from day to day, hour to hour. Sound like a plan?
Ok Cool!....I just watched my new friend Janine Grespans initial report on tonsilar cancer on CTV. Hopefully this link works and you can watch it too. http://www.southwesternontario.ctv.ca/news.php?id=3300&PHPSESSID=e8b0f081af1c8c2244c6fe75f3c9b86c
The doctor that she interviews is the guy that first examined me and gave me my prognosis, and who remains my primary follow up guy....a very professional but very cool guy.
I wish to dedicate day 70 to the very same Dr John Yoo because he promised me that in another year he would give me a chance to try an experimental idea he is working on to revitalize my saliva glands.
And just to prove that I can laugh at myself I give you this....
"To be stupid, selfish, and have good health are three requirements for happiness, though if stupidity is lacking, all is lost."---Gustave Flaubert---
I think I have a good chance at happiness.
love
peter
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I just don't have the time it would take to explain it all to someone as intellectually challenged as yourself. And don't be so sure Mary and Elly and I didn't have something to do with it. And just because there are days you can't see the answers, doesn't mean you don't know them on an intellectual level. Its emotionallt that we all lose sight of things, nothing to do with stupidity, though I hasten to add, your case may be unique. That's all I'm saying. Except don't forget you're a man, so you're starting a few paces back from the outset. Now there's a good way to get friends and enemies at the same time!
What A load of hogwash! Stupid my ass. I once had someone ask me if she should be worried because she had taken some cold medicine that had expired and I told her that they had to make the drugs safe for stupid people and thus she had nothing to worry about. All of us doubt our own worth sometimes whether it be our intelligence or fitness or something as trivial as our general appearance and in this particular family it's hard not find someone who can do it better. Most times I realize that this is because I know some truly exceptional people, but sometimes I just wonder how I ended up here. I don't really know if I have a specific purpose, but I guess my mission is to be needed and although I sometimes get myself into more things than I can handle and my family 's place on that needs list slips a bit it's what makes me feel best when I can be there when someone needs a hand. Cory has already put you in your place for today, so I feel no guilt in telling you that I am so glad that for whatever reason you got to a place where you needed or wanted to do this blog. I feel it has given me an incredible opportunity to know many of my family and I hope for you and them to know me as well, in ways we otherwise would probably have never shared,
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