"Lifes a Bitch!"

And then you die!
Or in my case, lifes a bitch, then you marry one, and then you die!

And the time in between your beginning and your end is filled with "stuff". Some good stuff, some shitty stuff and some boring stuff. All those self help gurus who tell you that's it's all in your attitude are just full of shit! Some days are just bad! Funny thing is that good and bad days are vastly different for different people. As an example I remember clearly the day I was told I had cancer. I remember it clearly for obvious reasons and yet I do not remember it as a really bad day. I can easily bring to mind several worse ones. When I tried to analyze the reasons for that I think I came up with an answer. It's because I felt a measure of control. They hadn't told me I was going to die and so I quickly moved into planning, organizing, strategizing, and deciding. I could do "something". My bad days are almost exclusively those when I can do nothing. When I am powerless to act!

That's not to say that attitude doesn't play a part. For me to suggest that we are totally at the mercy of circumstances would be abdicating my responsibility as a person. It's just that it's a whole lot easier to have a good attitude when you ain't hurtin. Or I suppose you could just say that right now, my attitude just sucks!

But I keep trying and I will pull through, and things will get better. Right?

I remember many of my good days were spent wrestling with my brothers in the living room when we were kids. I was always "in control" because I was the oldest, and strongest and smartest! Until of course the enevitable "that's enough boys!" came from the kitchen.. By the way, I'm still the oldest.

Anyway, now that there's no one bigger that me in the kitchen I can fight in the living room all I want, and in this case I'm not just the oldest but also the strongest. Two out of three ain't bad eh?



This is also good for my attitude.

"It's so hard when I have to, and so easy when I want to."---Annie Gottlier

"I not only bow to the inevitable; I am fortified by it."---Thornton Wilder

love
peter