As I was out running today and listening to my music I was trying to come up with a song or artist I could use as a theme for my blog. I seriously considered Crosby, Stills and Nash as they are long time favorites of mine and have covered every topic. Sex and drugs and rock and roll....oh and religion too. If you want to hear a great song check out Cathedral by CSN. Anyway after going through several ideas for some reason a particular melody with a few lines of lyric popped into my head. I thought I knew who the band was, and figured that with the few lines of lyrics I would be able to find it somewhere. Unfortunately I either have my lyrics messed up, or the band. I thought it was called "How can it be?" and I thought it was an early 70's band called Slade. If someone can shed some light on this it would be great. Who ever they are Im sure they pale in comparison to Eddy Vedder(Pearl Jam). I'm also sure that my brilliant music childern in Cambridge will be able to figure it out. Meanwhile I gave up my search, but decided to use my perceived title any way... so here goes.
How can it be? Last night I went to sleep with my wife beside me and when I awoke I was suddenly sleeping next to the woman of my dreams. Just for the record that's the typical mans' dream of a bright, intelligent, sexy, young woman in great shape. So whats going on here I asked myself? Could it be? Could it be? Yes, you guessed it...same woman. Why does it take so long to figure some things out, or maybe I already knew it once but forgot! How can it be?
How can it be? That 2 days ago I had a terrible workout, and yesterday was too bagged to do anything, and then today ran a half marathon(21.1k) in just under 2 hours? I felt great! I knew after 5 minutes that it was going to go well today. The weather was good. It started out cool and then got cooler and started raining. Perfect! It doesn't seem like much if I remember that some time back in chapter one I had run this distance in under 1 hr, 23 mins, but if sure feels great when I remember that 6 months ago, 1k was a major challenge. I was also significantly faster than my last longer attempt which took me more than 2 hours for 20K! I hope this is validation for my decision to stop the drugs, even though my head continues to rattle. I felt in control the whole way and could have gone further if there was a good enough reason to do so. How can it be?
How can it be? That 1 short year ago I had absolutley "zero" relationship with one of my siblings and now I find my self in a situation where this same person is a respected co-worker and friend? How can it be?
How can it be? That 2 years ago I had 2 sons with a major drug problem, and now although one of them continues to struggle, the other one is a model of health, both physical and emotional. And furthermore this young man has become my friend, my confidant and my teacher. How can it be?
How can it be? That 6 months ago I had no desire to live, but was afraid to die, and now, I am desperate to live, but not afraid to die? How can it be?
The answer is I suppose obvious. The major impact that my health issues have had, not just on myself, but on those around me, and all in positive ways. I'm sure that moving forward I will still many days where I struggle and get angry about what happened to me, but if you ask me today, I would say "it's all good"
My advice to myself and to any others who may care to take it comes from another song and in this case I am sure of the name and the band. When you find yourself in times of trouble just "Let it be, let it be. There will be an answer, let it be!"
Tomorrow I'm gonna go join the Y...for the swimming pool.
"Both tears and sweat are salty but they render a different result. Tears will get you sympathy, sweat will get you change"
I choose to dedicate day 14 to my beautiful neice Maisie, who is unafraid of the world!
Love
peter
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Glad to know that you know you are where you are supposed to be right now!
Hmmmm....are these your lyrics?
http://www.oldielyrics.com/lyrics/slade/how_can_it_be.html
I loved todays post and congrats on exceeding your goal!
I just wanted to say that I am honored by your perception of me. "I will always be better than before" - Eddie Vedder. This too, if you sweat enough, it runs into your eyes, and then you get tears as well. What the hell do you get then? Here is the entire song that the quote comes from.
Have no fear
For when I'm alone
I'll be better off than I was before
I've got this light
I'll be around to grow
Who I was before
I cannot recall
Long nights allow me to feel...
I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground
Ah...
I'll take this soul that's inside me now
Like a brand new friend
I'll forever know
I've got this light
And the will to show
I will always be better than before
Long nights allow me to feel...
I'm falling...I am falling
The lights go out
Let me feel
I'm falling
I am falling safely to the ground
How can a woman eat up a man
How can it be, how can it be
How can a lady cheat, well she can
How can it be, how can it be
Chorus
Well you know why that maybe I
Could sit and cry and sigh
And we know the reason why
How can it be
(repeat chorus)
How can a loser, change to a winner
How can it be, how can it be
How can a day dream, change to a has been
How can it be, how can it be
Chorus
(repeat chorus)
Break
Chorus
(repeat chorus)
How can a tear drop, dry up into laughter
How can it be, how can it be
How can a lover, a lover turn it on the other
How can it be, how can it be
Chorus
(repeat)
I'm not sure that the lyrics beyond that one line apply to what you were saying but here they are anyway. Have to work now so will add later Dammit!!
Ok thats enought work for now - time for a break. I love the how can it be questions. We all have so many of those we can ask ourselves. Short answer is "that's life". Without the questions we wouldn't strive to learn and I believe that's our mission on earth -to learn, ....and learn and learn, and learn some more. The simple questions are the hardest to find answers to because we look for them in the wrong places. We have to put our insides on the outside so we can see them in the light of day and others eyes. Sometimes its too dark in our insides to see well, and definitely too dark to understand. You've undertaken an amazing learning journey, and I don't mean the physical one. I do however believe that your physical journey will be more successful for going through the emotional one. And in doing this you provide the rest of us with the same opportunity for growth - I thank you - I have still so much to learn, and less time in which to do it because I'm so damn OLD!!!
Cory....I think you should read other people's comments before posting. Miguette beat you by a day posting the lyrics. Dah! Love you, bitch.
Why don't you go jump off a short peer Roo - I followed Miguette's link but couldn't find the lyrics there so thinking other people might have the same problem I thought I would post the whole thing instead of a link. I ALWAYS read other people's comments first except yours. I skip over those and read them when I have nothing else better to do. You can make anything into a competition can't you? huh? huh? I apologise to you Miguette, though I expect you weren't offended. Lov you Roo
I believe Cory, that this idiom should read, "Why don't you take a long walk off a short peer". Cory, Cory, Cory, it must be because your damn old.
Love you more Cory
Actually, I think it really is "why don't you take a long walk off a short PIER?"
DUH....
Well, I am still ahead. I might of spelled the word 'pier' wrong but Cory had the idiom and the word wrong. Ha!
What you people don't understand is I wanted her to JUMP off a short FRIEND - no idioms or spellings were incorrect. Ahh what an ass you make of you(just you)when you assume!
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