I found myself in the middle of one of these today while at the pool. It took me a second to realize that I was standing naked in the middle of the change room staring at nothing. I don't even know what I was thinking but I know what had set it off about a minute previous. When I came in from the pool I seen a guy with a strange looking belt around his waist. As I was wondering what it was, he turned around and I realized that it had a plastic bag attached to it, a bag which was of course attached to his body. For some reason it really hit me. Talk about literally putting your insides on your outsides. I remember reading a quote the other day that basically said, "why do we lament all the crap that comes our way, but are not grateful for the crap that doesn't?" What a graphic reminder this scene was for me. My brain quickly processed some gratitude that I haven't been saddled with what he had, as it would be pretty hard to do an Ironman with that kind of complication, never mind the day to day grief of it. I know that if I had something like this to deal with I probably wouldn't handle it very well. And yet the very first words out of this guys mouth when he seen me was, "it's a beautiful day out there today eh?"
It gave me a moments pause....
I had another special moment this morning with my better half when we first woke up. I don't know if I looked like I needed it or what but she said and I quote. "I think I love you more now than I ever have." Because this puzzled me I said "I wonder why?" Her response, "I don't know!" It was a nice moment for me because the obvious honesty of her second comment somehow validated the first.
I also had a decent training day. I swam for the fourth consecutive day (2000 metres) continuing to focus on technique, especially my body position and stroke. I think I am making slow but steady progress. Next week I will probably try a session with my wetsuit again just to see how it feels. I aslo had a very satisfactory bike ride. I could tell that I haven't run since monday as my legs felt pretty fresh. I did 80 kms in 2 hours 37 minutes with a steady 20 km/hr wind. The warmer weather makes riding so much more enjoyable. Did it really snow this past monday?
I wish to dedicate day 197 to the nameless man at the pool who thought it was a beautiful day!
"He who can no longer pause to wonder and stand rapt in awe, is as good as dead; his eyes are closed."---Albert Einstein
“Now and then it's good to pause in our pursuit of happiness and just be happy."---Guillaume Apollinaire
love
peter
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love gets bigger and heavier, never smaller and lighter. Once you love someone or something, it will always grow, always. Your awareness to that love may over time diminish, but that love can not get smaller or less. It is only when you have the realization of that love that you think things like "I love you more than I ever have before". You may be able to hate someone you love, you may even be able to ignore the love you once felt, as a result of the hatred created. Love is not a thing, it just is. You do not get to choose whom or what you love; You do not get to choose when you love, or how much you do. Love just is, and you can not change that. You are one of the lucky people in the world. You have a wife who has become aware of her love for you. She has also become aware of just how limitless it is. You also are very lucky in the way that she is brave enough to be sharing her feelings with you. Many are not. So sit, relax, don't decide how much, or for how long, you feel or have felt the way you feel. Just feel how you feel for your wife, and if you believe you owe it to her, you also need to be brave enough to share it with her.
I also love you more than I ever have before. When I feel the urge, I sit and feel how I feel about many other people in my life. Not even once have I ever realized I felt less for someone that I love.
Love can stop, but as long as it's there, it will never shrink, only grow. I will always love you. I hope my opinion in this matter is not way way way off, even if it is, I still like it.
Once again little Peter has lost me with his ramblings, but hopefully I got the gist of it but the real reason I'm writing is to tell you you SAW a guy with a belt. SAW, SAW, SAW, not SEEN!!!!!! Now stop doing that for Christ's sake. I'm having to correct Terry now too, and its MAKIN ME CRAZY!!!
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