and look back a little bit and also to think back a little bit. And yah we're back in the land of 2 official languages, even though I don't think anyone in BC even knows what "Arret" means!
So first on the looking back I found this, which I wrote on september 29th of last year, primarily in response to a question that Elly had asked.
I am doing this because I can! I am grateful that I can and so I intend to celebrate by doing so. I am doing this because it will be a great adventure. A whole year of intense workouts in 3 disciplines. I am doing this because the event itself will be a great adventure. Claudette and I will probably take our RV out to the beautiful Okanagan and make it a well deserved(at least for Claudette) vacation. I am doing this because Claudette thinks I should, and that in itself is a good enough reason for me. I am doing this for the very resaon Elly asks the question; as a motivator to be the fittest kindest person I can be. I believe that it has already done some things for me in this regard. And last but not least I am doing this because Pete Townsend and Roger Daltry asked the question "Who are you?" or more specifically in the lyrics of this great tune..."who the fuck are you? I am doing it to find out who I am, no pun intended. The first line in the song after the intro says and I quote..."woke up in a Soho doorway, a policeman knew my name. He said you can go sleep at home tonite, if you can get up and walk away". Thats why I'm doing this. To prove that I can get up and walk away. I don't mean from the physical challenges that tore me down in the last year, but rather from the self pitying, dependant, depressed person that I had become as a result. I am doing this because I want to get up and walk away, so that I can sleep at home tonite. Some people can't and/or don't!
Pretty cool eh? Especially as I sit here in our RV just a few hours from Penticton!
And on thinking back, I didn't look it up but I remember very clearly making the commitment publicly that beyond just doing an Ironman, I was resolved to come away from it without the burning question that many are faced with after achieving a goal of some kind, and that question is of course "is that all there is?". That's really been on my mind for the last week and rightly so. If I come out of this with anything less than I hoped for from a psychological perspective than I will feel like I have let myself down. I'm gonna continue to ponder it over the remaining days and although I don't feel like I've got a tight grip on it right now I intend to by the 30th.
I wish to dedicate day 337 to my grade 8 french teacher Madame Chan (yah she was Chinese!) who is as responsible as anyone for the fact that I understood the Arret sign!
Beyond getting me thinking Teresa also supplied the appropriate quotes for todays blog and here you have them.
"I have learned, that if one advances confidently in the direction of his dreams, and endeavors to live the life he has imagined, he will meet with a success unexpected in common hours."---Henry David Thoreau
"The dream was always running ahead of me. To catch up, to live for a moment in unison with it, that was the miracle."---Anais Nin
love
peter
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